Worse Preaching Ever

It seems I have been too loaded with so many things lately that I cannot cope up with my schedule.  I was so busy writing my sermon the whole week, I was really cramming since the passage they gave is really so difficult to preach.  I spend so much time preparing the English version, then translating it to its Chinese version.  I was also in our young professionals' retreat in Mt. Sea Resort.  My schedule was so loaded in translating and typing my manuscript in Chinese that I was not even able to go around and see the beautiful place, not even a dip in their beautiful pool.  I was just going around the session hall, my room and the dinning room again and again.

After finishing my Chinese translation which is taking so much time to translate and type, I discovered that I was only preaching one session instead of two.  I would only be preaching in the Chinese service, and come to think of it, I spend tons of time doing the English version. I should have made the Chinese version of the sermon directly if only I have checked my schedule.  I would have saved so much time and prepared well.  

Anyway, comes Saturday night, my first reading for my Chinese sermon.  I discovered that it was not readable.  I can't even understand myself as I read my manuscript. Grrr...

So, I started to revise my manuscript until 2:00 am.  I woke up at 7:00 am and start doing my PowerPoint presentation.  I finished it almost 9:00 am. Rush rush rush... I read my manuscript only once, which has never happened before.

As I deliver the message to the congregation, I was lost several times with my thoughts, and in several incidents I was not able to say correctly the pronunciation of the Chinese words. I was so frustrated.  ahhhh!!!!

I prayed and prayed as I prepare my sermon, the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.  I really lack sleep and indeed lack time to prepare, review, practice and internalize my message.

I asked the Lord to forgive me for not able to deliver His message well.  And come to think of it, I am rushing another message again for this Sunday to be delivered in my church in UECP, and it will also be in English and Chinese.

Please help pray for me...  It was really my worse preaching ever.