Gladly, he responded a little and I was able to transfer him to his chair, where he sleeps. After seeing him ok, I left to go back to bed. But with a big pain at my back, also a sign of aging crawling up on me.
This morning, as I prepare my dad's breakfast and help him eat (his whole body is aching because of the fall), I was thinking of hiring a caretaker for him, and here we go again, my mom who always can't get alone with any house help objected the idea. Many times, it is really tedious and difficult to care for old people. Both of them have their own respective weirdness.
My mom would almost daily complain that she has a bad life, but I would answer back that life to be good or bad is actually in the hands of the person. She could have enjoyed life for years but opted to live a bad life trying to make herself slave for all, which I personally don't appreciate. All my life I have been a good son providing material, emotional stability for this family. She is making herself a slave for all, which she never realized that such is only putting her children in a bad light for being perceived as bad children because she enjoys being pitied by people.
Well, I have always did my best and has even sacrificed my personal life for them. Me, remaining single is a result of the need to provide for the needs of my family. Though through the day's experienced challenged me to think, 'how about me when I grow old? Who will take care of me?' I have used up my finances to provide for this family. So, what will happen to me in the future?
Sometimes, parents really need be practical and work hard and save for their future in order not to be a burden to their children. I am not complaining about my situation but I do believe, I am not alone going through such tedious task of providing and caring for old parents. Good thing, God has blessed me in my journey, though I really missed the train of having my own family.
Still, I am hopeful in the coming days, I would meet the right girl to journey with me in the last leg of my life.
Sir, my feelings were all mixed up as I read this blog. I rejoice with you because you have taken a good attitude on your situation, and God is providing you patience, strength and resources in taking care of your parents.Then, I weep with you when you mentioned about who will take care of you when you get old. I agree with you sir when you stated that "life to be good or bad is in the hands of the person". Definitely right, it is in the "attitude", though sometimes, we feel weak, we doubt or we may ponder questions and I sympathize with you sir. I do experience hardships too-everybody does! We do have things to "sacrifice" in our lives. The Lord knows and He is always there to uplift us in times we get weary.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your piece. With this, I was reminded of God's promise that we are safe in His hands no matter what... OUR LIVES IS IN HIS HANDS.